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There’s a moment he will recall forever of her walking towards him along the winter path. They had arranged to meet beside the sea.

She looked so beautiful, wrapped in a knee length fur lined coat with red hat gracefully balanced atop her vivid hair.

The detail remained as sharp as ever.
Why didn’t he tell her he loved her there and then?
Why didn’t he announce it to the world?

He knew why he couldn’t speak and it stung his soul. He knew why and burned inside with the knowledge.

He had grown up in a home where love remained silent; an absent emotion that withered on the vine. He knew this as he took her hand, kissed her cheek, paid her a silly compliment about her frozen nose and made small talk as they headed towards the warmth of a restaurant.

She wasn’t his, of course.

He possessed no one and had given his soul to none. He was a man inviolate. She was all too briefly a part of his life, but he should have spoken. He should have told her, “I love you for all that you are.”
Instead he smiled and laughed, bought coffee and cake, laced the conversation with a multitude of interesting facts.

And she never knew, unless she knew, feeling discretion to be the better part of tact.
Afterwards he let her go, though it tore his heart to do so; when all he wanted was to hold her tight, to breathe in the perfume of her life.

He knew she had to leave; she wasn’t his to keep, he had merely borrowed her from another who adored her as much as he did.

On that day, her eyes were bright with life. She held the vitality of an unconquered spirit within her precious soul.

She seemed so small, so slender, so in touch with all he wanted and needed from a love. His sole desire was to sweep her into his arms and hold her close.

Love can last forever, or may last the length of a pleasant afternoon.

Given the confusion in his heart and all he subsequently discovered what he found was that love will light the fires of memory for an eternity of time.

In all the years following, and each time they met, he never stopped loving her or allowed the experience of that day to slip away. And though he was destined to meet a beautiful woman with whom he exchanged vows, how could he ever forget?

But why didn’t he speak?

Deeper meaning?

As you learn and grow, so do your friendships and relationships. I really noticed this when I started committing to a spiritual/motivational practice everyday. My circle of friends completely shifted. 

It’s not a “good” or “bad’ thing, but it’s important to understand that throughout our lives, people are going to fall away. And who knows, they might be back, but all you do know now is that you’ve learned all that you can from each other at this time.

Having a spiritual awakening is realizing that there is more to life than what you have been taught to believe. There is more to you, the universe, and the human experience than just paying the bills and joining the rat race.

Something within you begins to detect that there is deeper meaning waiting to be discovered, and as you begin to detect this, your mind, body, and soul begin to transform.

As you begin to awaken, you become more interested in the pursuit of knowledge, wisdom, and experience. Going out and wasting your time every weekend stops appealing to you, and the ways you used to spend your spare time now seem useless and redundant.

Your curiosity switches to wanting to understand the infinite world of potential that resides within you.

When your soul comes alive inside you, your entire lifestyle begins to change. Your diet, relationships, past times, and hobbies all take a dramatic transformation. Things that no longer serve your transformation start to fade away. It’s very common that people begin to distance themselves from old friends, old habits, and old ways that they no longer have anything in common with.

As you start to live in your truth, life becomes more light, and fear begins to subside. You stop caring about what other people think about you. You no longer worry and stress over things like social reputation, popularity, and seeking approval, because your sense of identity comes from something much deeper than that.

As you being to have a personal relationship with God, you begin to trust more. When the trust is strengthened, fear disappears.

If you're going through this, accept what is and be open to the charm that's about to enter your life. So much pain and so many problems come from resisting our growth, and wanting to stay in old patterns even when they no longer serve us.

You no longer have to hide from your truth, start embracing it and start living it today.

Till we meet again!

Things I Learned from Running

Today, I had a small injury in the gym while I’m pumping my muscles, was very small nothing major and I decided that it’s enough for today, I will go home read, cook, watch documentaries and chill!

But, I received a call that encouraged me to go for a run. Got my shoe, headset, my playlist is hitting my mind and I’m thinking; why do I run?

I used to answer, ‘because I’m good at it, ‘because I enjoy it,’ ‘because it keeps me fit.’

But deep inside; it didn’t meet my expectations. Five minutes later, around 5 guys walking and blocking my way, they saw me running and surprisingly, they changed the way!

"Friends ask why I run. I say, 'If you have to ask, you will never understand. It is something only those select few know. Those who put themselves through pain, but know, deep down, how good it really feels."

I run because I can. Because when I do, there's always the chance to be extraordinary. A chance to start unknown and to finish unforgettable. A chance to overcome all obstacles, to fight through pain and suffering to test your emotional limits and boundaries, to experiment with the potential of the human body and discover just how far you can push yourself. And a chance to feel like a completely different person, a person who inspires others, and who they strive to be.

Running is pretty much like life, there is a start line, there is a finish line, in between you feel suffocating; puke, faint, you feel like giving up, you face unexpected boundaries, challenges, you feel pain in every single part of your body, and you are one puff away from giving up. Are you going to give up?

Don’t give up, don’t give in!

“I want you to take your claws and reach deep inside; down to the depths of your core. Then I need you to pull out that Moutherfucker BEAST that is just DYING to come out! You are NOT weak; STOP IT! Wake up and rip that shit wide open and show yourself and the world just how strong you really are!”

Impress yourself, not others.

Can you Live without Values?

Goodness without knowledge is weak; knowledge without goodness is dangerous. We have to build a better man before we can build a better society. All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good people do nothing. Our purpose is not to make a living but a life--a worthy, well-rounded, useful life. Morality is not a subject; it is a life put to the test in dozens of moments.

-Paul Tillich -

Before you answer this question, you need to know what, in general, values are.

Your values are the things that you believe are important in the way you live your life.

They "should" determine your life goal, life purpose, priorities, and, deep down, they're probably the measures you use to tell if your life is turning out the way you want it to.

When the things that you do and the way you behave match your values, life is usually good – you're satisfied and content. But when these don't align with your personal values, that's when things feel... wrong. This can be a real source of unhappiness.

You see, there are so many things that hinder us from achieving our goals. We all cling on to bad habits, deconstructive behavior, and limiting beliefs or values. But the worst is when you don't figure out what is your values or beliefs.

In 2006, I was fighting this battle, day, and night. I tried to give up purposely on my values and beliefs because of the unsatisfied feeling about my religion. And I have the balls to say that, but I figured out that I'm the one who didn't understand well what was my values and beliefs.

Regardless of what you believe in, God, karma, destiny or anything, try not to change them unless you proof to yourself that your values were wrong. Because many people, unfortunately, they are stuck in the shadow of fake happiness, they feel good, for some time, but deep inside they are scared, lonely, looking for anything to make them feel happy even if it is wrong, bad or disrespectful, looking for hope they've already lost and if you will ask them about a very short term plan like one year, they will not answer because they don't know! They just don't.

It is important to carefully consider your values for several reasons:

They could guide your life minute by minute towards noble goals, rather than your life being controlled by self-serving motives, customs, accidental occurrences, bad habits, impulses, or emotions. You have to know where you are going before you can get there.

Values and beliefs can not only guide but inspire and motivate you, giving you energy and a zest for living and for doing something meaningful.

Professed but unused values are worthless or worse--phony goodness and rationalizations for not changing. We must be honest with ourselves, recognizing the difference between pretended (verbalized) values and operational (acted on) values.

Of course, no one lives up to all their ideals, but values that only make us look or feel good (including being religious) and do not help us act more morally must be recognized as self-serving hypocrisy.

Thus, self-help is not just for overcoming problems; it also involves learning to become what you truly value, achieving your greatest potential. That is why your values and strengths should be considered along with your problems.

And finally, I don't write to impress anyone on this planet! I hope you have a clear idea about your values in life because it's what represents YOU!

What Does Passionate Mean?

Most of us have no clue what we want to do with our lives. Even after we finish school. Even after we get a job. Even after we’re making money. Between ages 18 and 25, some people changed their careers aspirations more often than they changed their underwear.

It’s a struggle almost every adult goes through. “What do I want to do with my life?” “What am I passionate about?” “What do I not suck at?” I often meet people in their 40s and 50s who still have no clue what they want to do with themselves.

Part of the problem is the concept of “life purpose” itself. The idea that we were each born for some higher purpose and it’s now our cosmic mission to find it. This is the same kind of shitty logic used to justify things like your lucky number is 69 (but only on Tuesdays or during full moons).


Here’s the truth. We exist on this earth for some undetermined period of time. During that time we do things. Some of these things are important. Some of them are unimportant. And those important things give our lives meaning and happiness. The unimportant ones basically just kill time.

On the other side, “Passionate” is the most overused word in job interviews and marketing material. Everyone’s passionate about everything!

But let me tell you a little secret. What most people don’t understand is that passion is the result of action, not the cause of it!!!

Passion is the added value you received when you do a specific thing!

After 26 years on this planet, I can say that I found things I'm passionate about, but still, I'm discovering myself more every day..!!!

Till next time! 

What makes you different from others?

I was in the street waiting for a taxi after a long day in work. Many friends are calling to go party but i didn't felt like going for many reasons, the 3rd taxi stopped and asked me: Where are you going?
I answered thinking that he will reject because i'm living in the middle of the traffic in Doha.

I'm going there to have my dinner, come buddy! He said, the Indian music in the background staring from my window to people, cars and buildings.

He start to ask me the typical questions from any taxi driver, where are you from, where do you work? I used to answer these question while i'm thinking about something else and i was thinking about a question kicked me badly. What makes you different from others??

I reached home, took a shower and played some Jordanian songs, checking my social media channels and watching TV all at the same time. Leave behind that its really strange i'm not in party as its weekend but everything is going well.

It's pretty tough to ask yourself these questions because you are rapping your mind with big thoughts, and you are trying too hard to find answers for all these questions.

I've sent this question to many friends as a broadcast on WhatsApp. Honestly, i didn't find a real answer, one of my favorite badass girl said: i'm different because i'm once in a lifetime and i don't compare my self to others. "Bill gates quote" But Mr. Gates, you were WRONG because we need to compare ourselves everyday, every minuet, every second! You must compare yourself to yourself yesterday and the day before, because in order to grow you need to know where you was yesterday and if you become a better person! Maybe they have different point of views which i always respect, but they didn't convince me not even 10%. Okay, 20% as i just received now an answer from a friend in Dubai and she said something make sense a bit.

From my standpoint, what make everyone of us different is our values. In fact, it's your value in life. And by saying value i don't mean believes, religion, better life nor peace.

It's what you bring to your life, what you add to your life and others, this is your value. In a different way, we don't get salaries every month because we worked a month!! No, we get paid because of the value we add to every month we work.   

We don't live once, we live everyday, think good of the value you add to everyday in your life because this is YOU and your value.

Men in Kitchen!

I still remember my mother when she gave me a small paper were she wrote on it some basic recipes like how to make rice and some steak. I was in the airport heading to Doha, i thought its a prayer to read or some sort of motivation words!

After couple of months in Doha she called me and she asked if i start cooking, i had to lie and say: Yes, I've cooked some dishes, but i had no clue that to be in kitchen is so tough job.

I used to live on some tuna, burger, ORDERING FOOD and when i'm really excited i was doing some tuna salad, but after my experience in food poisoning for the second time, i had to stop this shit right away!

I end up in hospitals taking the same medicine and feeling the same rough pain, so i had to decide what sort of food i'm going to live on. 

It's not really an easy process for a man who only know how to cook some toast and cheese. The first time i tried to do something the fire alarm went on! You can picture me.

After two years of living alone i learned how to make rice, steak and some omelet which i think it's good for a single man. 

10 things you don't know about men in kitchen:

1- Men don't know shit about kitchen.
2- We don't check the expiry dates, we just eat.
3- We buy food we don't know how to cook, curious creatures.
4- All our food is awesome and yummy!
5- If the fire alarm went on it might be the neighbor not us.
6- If we succeed in cooking anything, we don't know how to store it.
7- We see the same things in the fridge for months but we don't know when is the right time to eat it. 
8- They feel they've cooked something when they make popcorn.
9- we always throw more than we consume.
10- Men don't know shit about kitchen.

Where's that Box?

Let me start this time with a question. What is the value of your certificate? and how much did you spend to make a "Life event post on Facebook" Saying "Graduated from xx university"?

It's really funny and awkward the amount of money we spent to study. i'm sure that this thing doesn't apply on all of us but seriously it's a ridiculous amount of money.

From my personal experience, I spent hell amount of money to get that paper were they wrote on it my name in a ridiculous font! So, i'm grateful for it because it grantee me an INTERVIEW!

I've spent 6 years studying, two years for diploma and 4 for the bachelor degree, i don't denied that i got a good education and I've met some teachers that they will remain in my memory till the end of everything because they inspired me and bring out the best of me. 

But, is it enough?

I don't think at all.

During our studies, first job and from our communities we keep hearing them saying "Out of the box"

1- Your answers were out of the box. "School"

2- Please come up with out of the box idea. "Work"

3- He/She is successful because they think out of the box. "Community" 

Yeah! this is how we all grew up. Okay, not all, Most of us. they keep telling us things they don't understand just to satisfy their needs. In school, family, community. But you know what is the SHAME, we believed them. At least me.

I had some issues to understand the concept of "Out of the box" for many years, i knew that its creativity in our modern world. But why?

Why only out of the box? and why people or most of them limits their minds to TWO things in or out of the box?

I have many questions that needs answers, but i found a way to skip over these things! I don't think inside the box nor out of the box.

I don't see your box at all!

That moment,,

It was 8 in the morning and I'm late to my work.

The coffee is ready to kick my brain and my cigarette in the process of being blessed. Like any typical morning!!

But,, for a minute i start thinking about my whole life.. Oh i forget to tell ya, i was in the bathroom, my second favorite spot in my home.

Like a short video the last 5 years passed in 5 seconds, school, the 3 part time jobs and everyone I've met in these years!! But the big bang question just kicked off. ""What makes you wake up everyday in the morning??""

Ohlala!! not easy one, right? Passion, big dreams, love my job, money or maybe family?? I was thinking that i found the answer of this question since "21/01/2010" the night that changed my whole life. But wait you don't know the answer.. me whispering!

The 6th alarm start to shout and i hate it as much as i hate WINE! After i snooze it.. Dude, seriously speaking WTF do you want from your life?  Why the hell you exist?? the fight just start and i light up my second cigarette. Me: I want to redefine what i love to do!! E-commerce and digital marketing.

But is that enough?? the inspiring guy just woke up! is this what are you living for?  Hmmm.. No i have many goals.. Name it then: .....

I was on my way out of my home, i closed the door and heading to the elevator... But it's still missing, and i have no fuckin clue what is it. i stepped back going home and i stand in front of my fridge were i placed all the meaningful words and i start reading out fucking loud my HOLY MORNING WORDS. Call it whatever you want, for me those words made me achieve what i thought is impossible.

Dreams.. Pain...Success .. Again repeat! Long breath... RELEASE! it feels better, right? Life is tough on all of us, but in order to reach where you want to be, You should Never Ever Forget -
WHO YOU ARE!

I'm writing this to remind myself about one thing! Your goals in the last 5 years already achieved, since 21/01/2015.

Time to take a break and re-arrange the future. 

@OoredooQatar Your ignorance level is ridiculous!

Ooredoo Qatar​ has a new department called " IGNORANCE"

I've submitted my application for internet broadband in first of December hoping to have the service within 1 - 2 weeks.

Suddenly, I figured out that the electricity No in my apartment is taken by another neighbor, so i called them to make sure that they know what is happening and to know if i can get the service!!

Their answer wasn't clear; we will send one of our team to make sure you will get the service. They said.

I went to their branch making an official complaint, it was easy and quick and they told me we will make it urgent complaint so they can look into it ASAP.

Call after call. with no result...But after i start kicking them on #twitter a guy called me to ask about my address so he can come and fix the issue, i gave him the address hoping this is the end of this stupid nightmare.

And again with no results!!

On the 17th of Feb they followed me back on twitter and DM-ing me  asking about info. I Provided them with everything and i asked them one thing. Please make sure it will not take another 60 days..

And the answer is like always: "we are checking your request & will update you as soon as we hear from the concerned"

The last Dm from them was on 21st of FEB telling me they will get back to me!!!! We are in March if I'm not mistaken.

I'm not in a mad rush to have the service! but all i asked for is to know where do i stand with my application.

Tips for your newly IGNORANCE people:

1- Don't ever make your customer feel that they know more than you do! Because you will look like a child with a pinkish lollipop.

2- On Twitter you have only 72 hrs to respond! after that its #FAIL

3- I'm talking to a brand on social media not with departments, so don't keep telling me " we will check with the concerned department" Go check and give me the conclusion.

I hate doing this!! But you guys pushed my nerves.

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